Here it is, my first blog...
I want to start out by explaining the title- a few years ago things in my life weren't going very well. I found myself very alone in a dark and empty place- I would wander around aimlessly and I had no direction. I remember driving down the road, the sun was actually shining that day, and this song came on the radio- it felt as if the lyrics were being pulled from my head-
"I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon...
...Swing life away"
I got home and did some research, and found out about Rise Against. I started listening more and more to the words in their music, and started to feel so empowered. I didn't need to listen to what other people were telling me to do anymore- those people did not care about me, or my happiness. I spent so much time making other people happy, and going along with other people's plans, no wonder I was so miserable.
The title is from the song "Heaven Knows" and I can honestly say I do not know where I would be if I had never listened to those words- they are what brought me back to life.
So now here I am! And I am happy, for the most part. Of course, we all have days where it feels like it should be the end of the world- I have had some of those days recently- the difference is that now there is a silver lining, always visible.
I decided to start blogging at the suggestion of some close friends, to help me figure out the mystery that is my son, Gavin, and also to share the funny stories and trials of my days. I hope that this blog will help me meet parents who might be going through the same things, that might have suggestions, or even answers. I will most likely go more in to detail about all of that sometime soon.
But the news for now- We put a deposit down today on our new place, we'll be signing our lease next week, which means we need to start packing! I am so excited about this move! We are going to live so close to everything, it is going to give us so much more space and free time, and the best part will be the yard, I can already picture sitting in a lawn chair watching the boys splash in their little pool.
Things will be good- I can feel it!
